These words are like riddles, dancing too and fro through the intricate
web of my mind. They giggle and play, feeling a sense of peace after so
many years trapped in darkness. I can feel the warmth that surrounds
them, the joy of release as they chase each other through the soft
streams of light that now shimmer behind my eyes.
It's been too long since I've felt this energy weave through me... So many years having been buried beneath the rubble of painful yesterdays. Something once thought lost, devoured by the jaws of a ravenous fate... Has reawakened from a fading ember into a brilliant, soul-consuming flame.
I had become so used to the darkness, my silent friend... That I had convinced myself I'd never know True Warmth again. The mystical heat of living emeralds, shimmering gently within the light. A flame that held me, comforted me, brought real meaning to my life.
And in one instant, that life altering moment... The flame was taken away...and I was thrown, screaming into darkness... Led to believe I would never know that loving Warmth again...
So within the darkness I roamed, wandering overgrown paths and twisting roads of unspoken horrors. I trudged on, a piece of myself lost within the ruins of my broken heart. An emptiness that would never be filled, the gaping wound forever festering...reminding me of the Warmth I once had.
I carried on, a shell of who I used to be... Convinced that I would never again know the Heat of a better tomorrow... I would never Feel Hope. I wouldn't be able to know what it meant to be Whole again... That precious thing, having died...having been torn away with that Living Green Light.
The years had passed like waves trickling along an endless, sandy shore. The fates did not weep for my loss, instead they seemed to laugh, torturing me with the memories of a life I would never have.
I tried to soldier on, convinced there was no such thing as a happy ending. There was no room for a better life. There would always be that comfortable darkness to watch over me, a sanctuary I could go to when the world was too bright for my weary eyes. I had become comfortably numb, the pain a steady reminder that this existence will never be easy. Dreams are nothing more than a tease of what will never be.
The gaping wound left inside was suddenly filled by a self created demon. My dark angel to guard me in my sleep. It watched in silence, growling a terrible warning at any who dared venture too close. The hole left in the wake of my past, was no longer a wound, but its sanctuary. The debris of my soul its bedding as it stood guard over my dying heart. And with time, it grew ever stronger... And at my lowest, it was there...in all its terrible glory, to bring me back. To keep me from becoming nothing more than a fading star within the black.
And after all these years, having grown comfortably numb to all the light and the noise...and all the things I'd come to hate... Knowing that I was slipping ever deeper within the rabbit hole...
A soft glow caught my attention. I didn't understand it at first, knowing there should only be darkness coiled so deep inside. But the Beast remained silent... She didn't growl, nor bare those deadly rows of razor sharp teeth. I sensed a calm radiating from her, telling me without words... This wasn't something to fear. I should dig deeper...find the source...and set it free.
Reluctantly I began the slow trek into the winding paths of my inner world. A terrible place filled with the horrors of my mind... But none could be found. They all seemed to stay back, away from that gentle glow that grew brighter with every careful step I made.
After what felt like forever within a labyrinth of broken promises and shattered dreams... I found myself standing before a small clearing...monstrous trees towering into the darkness above me, like ancient sentinels guarding this delicate thing.
I took a step closer, afraid of this gentle light...a glow that seemed to beckon me, urging me closer with a wordless song only my soul could hear.
Before I could reach out a shaky hand, that soft ember erupted into a violent flame. I was suddenly overwhelmed by it; standing there helpless as the heat curled around my body in a wave of blinding light.
But it didn't burn...
The fire that consumed me, suddenly pulsed and began to fade... The glow poured into my eyes, swirled deep into the crevices of my mind and left a trail of living heat in its wake to the hole nestled so deep inside. The Beast merely yawned, stood aside and allowed the glow to fill the void left of my broken heart...
And for the very first time, I realized...it was never dead, but merely asleep.
The Flame I had once thought lost...had merely been waiting to Find me.
And after all these years... Through all the Darkness, and the tears... Through the endless leviathan of paths leading me back to where I once began... Back to the place where I was Whole.
For the first time, I finally see...
...This is where I'm meant to be.
Consumed by the Flames of My Destiny.
-Fades to Black-
It's been too long since I've felt this energy weave through me... So many years having been buried beneath the rubble of painful yesterdays. Something once thought lost, devoured by the jaws of a ravenous fate... Has reawakened from a fading ember into a brilliant, soul-consuming flame.
I had become so used to the darkness, my silent friend... That I had convinced myself I'd never know True Warmth again. The mystical heat of living emeralds, shimmering gently within the light. A flame that held me, comforted me, brought real meaning to my life.
And in one instant, that life altering moment... The flame was taken away...and I was thrown, screaming into darkness... Led to believe I would never know that loving Warmth again...
So within the darkness I roamed, wandering overgrown paths and twisting roads of unspoken horrors. I trudged on, a piece of myself lost within the ruins of my broken heart. An emptiness that would never be filled, the gaping wound forever festering...reminding me of the Warmth I once had.
I carried on, a shell of who I used to be... Convinced that I would never again know the Heat of a better tomorrow... I would never Feel Hope. I wouldn't be able to know what it meant to be Whole again... That precious thing, having died...having been torn away with that Living Green Light.
The years had passed like waves trickling along an endless, sandy shore. The fates did not weep for my loss, instead they seemed to laugh, torturing me with the memories of a life I would never have.
I tried to soldier on, convinced there was no such thing as a happy ending. There was no room for a better life. There would always be that comfortable darkness to watch over me, a sanctuary I could go to when the world was too bright for my weary eyes. I had become comfortably numb, the pain a steady reminder that this existence will never be easy. Dreams are nothing more than a tease of what will never be.
The gaping wound left inside was suddenly filled by a self created demon. My dark angel to guard me in my sleep. It watched in silence, growling a terrible warning at any who dared venture too close. The hole left in the wake of my past, was no longer a wound, but its sanctuary. The debris of my soul its bedding as it stood guard over my dying heart. And with time, it grew ever stronger... And at my lowest, it was there...in all its terrible glory, to bring me back. To keep me from becoming nothing more than a fading star within the black.
And after all these years, having grown comfortably numb to all the light and the noise...and all the things I'd come to hate... Knowing that I was slipping ever deeper within the rabbit hole...
A soft glow caught my attention. I didn't understand it at first, knowing there should only be darkness coiled so deep inside. But the Beast remained silent... She didn't growl, nor bare those deadly rows of razor sharp teeth. I sensed a calm radiating from her, telling me without words... This wasn't something to fear. I should dig deeper...find the source...and set it free.
Reluctantly I began the slow trek into the winding paths of my inner world. A terrible place filled with the horrors of my mind... But none could be found. They all seemed to stay back, away from that gentle glow that grew brighter with every careful step I made.
After what felt like forever within a labyrinth of broken promises and shattered dreams... I found myself standing before a small clearing...monstrous trees towering into the darkness above me, like ancient sentinels guarding this delicate thing.
I took a step closer, afraid of this gentle light...a glow that seemed to beckon me, urging me closer with a wordless song only my soul could hear.
Before I could reach out a shaky hand, that soft ember erupted into a violent flame. I was suddenly overwhelmed by it; standing there helpless as the heat curled around my body in a wave of blinding light.
But it didn't burn...
The fire that consumed me, suddenly pulsed and began to fade... The glow poured into my eyes, swirled deep into the crevices of my mind and left a trail of living heat in its wake to the hole nestled so deep inside. The Beast merely yawned, stood aside and allowed the glow to fill the void left of my broken heart...
And for the very first time, I realized...it was never dead, but merely asleep.
The Flame I had once thought lost...had merely been waiting to Find me.
And after all these years... Through all the Darkness, and the tears... Through the endless leviathan of paths leading me back to where I once began... Back to the place where I was Whole.
For the first time, I finally see...
...This is where I'm meant to be.
Consumed by the Flames of My Destiny.
-Fades to Black-
