It trickles behind heavy-lidded eyes. The secret plain of the inner worlds, stretching out into a timeless oblivion where stars are nestled within creation. It is there, in that sacred inner place that one's mind blossoms. Cast out from the harsh solidity of the body and thrown into an ether of limitless possibility.
Dreams are a helluva thing.
Been too long since these hands have glided over a keyboard; fingertips finding their old graceful rhythm as they dance fluidly along black keys. A sort of calming takes place as the mind remains foggy from recent dreamscape, not yet overwhelmed by the white noise of reality. Tis always best to allow words to stream from practiced hands onto parchment (traditional or otherwise) for the intent is clear and free flowing. Imagine that the mind is akin to a freeway. When one is newly awake, it is much like the wee hours of darkness and almost every lane is open with a car few and far between. Where you, as the driver, can almost enjoy the scenery as you cruise along at an uninterrupted, steady pace. It is almost impossible to allow oneself to write with such freedom after having a hectic day; nothing more then being trapped in rush hour traffic accompanied by anxiety and exhaustion when you finally pause long enough to even attempt to write. It's no longer an enjoyable pass time, but a straining chore due to the echoing noise of the day resounding behind your eyes.
At least for me, anyway. It's simply much easier for me write soon after I've woken for my mind is still calm from unconsciousness.
As I've noted, it has been quite some time since I've updated and I apologize for that. The transitions I've encountered during the past 6 months or so have left me too clouded to stop and write. Now having steady hours at a job I love does help tremendously. Being that it involves the ocean (not surprising *chuckles*) if she's calm, then I have work. If she's in a mood, then I find myself with less hours. Currently, she's feeling fairly good and welcomes visitors so I'm finally working five days a week. It's been good for me emotionally to be productive again. I've also taken on working on my YouTube channel creating interesting content for everyone to view and enjoy. It's honestly something I'm passionate about and truly enjoy doing. I've been acquiring items necessary to create better quality videos and have steadily grown more comfortable/confident with editing. I've lacked in uploading recently due to a certain item not arriving (or rather having received the Wrong Item, I should say) and having to wait for my next paycheck to ship said item back in the hopes they send the correct one. Currently, I'm waiting for them to exchange said item and ship it back as promised.
I'm honestly excited about my future projects and how my channel has grown since I started to create again. I may not have all that many Subscribers, but the fact that people have decided to do so, blows me away and I'm incredibly humbled by it. Currently I'm at 143 Subscribers. I am grateful to each one.
My channel is a mismatch of things; story readings, halloween makeup looks and random vlogs with some old fan-videos of my favorite movies/tv shows with music. One in particular has recently been gaining quite a bit of views. I created it on a whim. A tribute to my love of werewolves and one of my favorite bands; Disturbed. I named it, "Moon Sickness" <-(Click to view said video) and uploaded it October 4th 2011. I did it purely out of love and it did alright, considering I was a novice more or less when I put it together. In recent months, I witnessed it Jump in views and had no idea why. It gained nearly 2,000 views in over two months and I was dumbfounded. Then I noticed something... There's a new tag at the bottom when I open the detail section. 'Suggested by WMG' and it'll either link to "SLIPKNOT- The Devil In I (OFFICial VIDEO)" or "DISTURBED- The Sound Of Silence (OFFICIAL VIDEO)"
I was completely floored when I saw this... And my old werewolf video is now at nearly 7,000 views with 77 likes and 1 dislike.
Like my other fan-made videos, it is not monetized. Neither are my Creepypasta readings or Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark readings with my little buddy Squeaks. Why? I give credit when credit's due and it is not my right to make a profit off other's work. Period. Having had my own work (Story and Artwork alike) plagiarized in the past (even so far as someone coping one of my alien art pieces and trying to sell it as their own) I would never do that to another creator. So seeing that they've decided to Share my Werewolf Tribute is incredibly humbling.
So I'm attempting to gather the remains of who I used to be and piece them into someone new. I know I will never be the same, as I've mentioned time and again in past blogs. I am trying to move forward and make a better tomorrow for myself and the people I love and care about. It has not been easy, nor will it ever truly be, but it has been better.
You know, it's rather odd that I'd find the urge to write again when I've been struggling to do so for quite some time now. It's odd because today marks 2 years and 2 months since I lost my Father. Perhaps it's the calm that washes over me whenever the 14th rolls around that allowed me to start typing as if I'd never stopped. *shrugs*
I do have a question for those of you who have gotten this far and enjoy viewing my creations on my YouTube channel.
Would you be interested in a Paranormal video? Or a series of paranormal based videos; each having their own particular story or experience? I had a few before, which actually did rather well, but I removed them out of embarrassment. I think I'd like to create them again. Make a playlist dedicated to Paranormal Experiences. Considering All Hallow's Eve is growing ever nearer as Summer begins to draw to close, I think it would be an absolutely wonderful idea.
Let me know if you'd be interested in seeing something like that. You know me, lover of all things Macabre just like her great Uncle Vinny ;)
And on that note my lovelies, it is time that I away and perhaps work on a simple Vlog for my YouTube channel before having to get ready and head out to work around 4pm.
Until next time...
-Adieu
