Crisp air caresses my tired form as I fight to regain some heat back into my numb fingers after sitting outside to marvel at the beauty of another morning. The rain has finally dissipated, allowing the sun to break through the misty cloud layer, revealing a snow kissed mountain in the distance. It appears more like powdered sugar lightly dusted along it's dark surface.
As I sit here, recalling the beauty of nature... A live version of 'Hotel California' begins spilling through the speakers. Sometimes, Pandora has an eerie way of playing the right kind of music that goes along with my mood. *gives a small smile* It's honestly one of my all time favorite songs...and always causes something to ease in my chest when that haunting beat slithers through my ears.
*takes a drink of her strong coffee of doom and laughs as Deep Purple's 'Smoke On the Water' starts playing*
Considering everything going on right now, I'm feelin' relatively more like myself again. Maybe it has to do with that fact that Spring is ever nearer and that has always given me a charge. Also, knowing that Dad is in a better state (despite his rough moments) and is SAFE really takes a weight off of me. The only thing that jabbed me a alittle was yesterday, when he called around 1pm and proceeded to use me as his verbal punching bag for his frustrations. When he's like that, I know it has more to do with his ammonia levels fluctuating. I got off the phone feeling as though I had disturbed a nest of vipers somewhere deep within my stomach and they were none-too happy about being jostled awake.
*gives a slight shrug and lets out a soft sigh*
He's going to have his ups and downs, and I just have to remember he's never going to be quite the same again. He's become more or less crotchety and has moments where he's real mean...and uses me as his personal sounding board. I just have to suck it up, keep quiet and let it pass because honestly, there isn't much I can do or say to make it better.
*grows a lopsided smile as The Doors 'Soul Kitchen' begins playing*
Pandora definitely has a knack for playing the best kind of music when I'm writing.
*takes another drink of her coffee*
In other random news of doom... I've found my camera and have been snapping way too many pictures again. Oh and as I write this, Gir just flew up and ninja-hugged me...so he's now on the back of my chair, hugged me and just leapt over to the bed before he lost his balance... Oi XD
Anyhoo, yes...pictures'n'junk. I've also been taking several snap shots of these cute lil ladybugs that have been showing up on our little bench on the front porch. One is bright yellow orange, another is more tangerine and the smallest is red. No idea why they've started using my front porch as their sanctuary, but I don't mind *smiles* It's nice to have company when I'm out there by myself, even if they act more decorations than little creatures.
*laughs as AC/DC's 'You Shook Me All Night Long' starts playing*
Well, seems the hamster in my brain has decided to fling itself off the wheel again and is now twitching on the floor... So I'm going to scamper off, finish my coffee and go run some errands. I honestly look forward to getting out of the house for a bit...especially on such a beautiful day ^_^
-Adieu
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